Your intuition will eventually get your attention

I have this perception about life, that it should be effortless, full of wonderful events and loving people. I should be doing something so fulfilling that I will never feel like I am working a day in my life. Is this being an optimist? Unreal? Utopian? To be honest, I don't know the correct word, but in spite of all the incidents that come into my life that I could chose to experience as negative, I still feel like this is what my life should be. Is this my intuition talking?

The way I am raised, I'm supposed to study, get a job, marry, have kids, pay my mortgage, be there for others, live up to expectations and always do the right thing. How do I know when I'm doing the right thing? The right thing according to who's standards? What if I all of a sudden realize that I'm living someone else's dream, not my own?

At that point, I make a decision to change my life. I quit my job, get divorced and move to a different country. I study different subjects - subjects of the mind this time, spiritual subjects, quantum physics. Questions start falling on me like heavy rainfall. Who am I? What is my purpose here? Why am I having this experience at this point in time? Why did I experience sadness, negativity or misfortune when I kept thinking positive and feeling love for all beings? What am I missing? What can I do differently to live MY dream?

Where does intuition fit into all this? I think I get it now, sitting in the sunshine, drinking my latte, watching the world go by. This wonderful feeling wells up inside that what I'm doing is exactly right. I mean, it must be! If it makes me feel this way by just sitting, watching, interacting, sending people love and acting out of kindness. Forget the shoulds, coulds, musts and buts. Forget the financial side of life, the mortgage, the job situation. If I feel this good on my own, without much money or a job, big house, fancy cars or a luxurious lifestyle, I am radiating calmness, joy and enthusiasm. It affects other people, it transcends through time and space, it speaks the language of the Universe and I know I am safe, I am at peace. I have found my purpose. I wish you would join me.